This was the hardest part for me. I remember running into a director at a gas station after my first seminar in 1998. I asked her “I don’t get this part of making God my business partner.” She said “You will.” At that seminar I heard Cindy Williams say “God does not call the equipped, He equips the called.” I was stunned. Born and raised as Episcopalian, I had never heard God’s name evoked in any business opportunity before, and I was at a loss for words.
Fast forward a few years and I am a member of a semi-elite Bible Studies group for directors only. This involvement calls for me to drive 100 miles round trip to breathe the same air as other directors who are more worthy than me. I remember the first time we prayed for more red jackets and more production. Another stunning moment. The leader of the group was a soon to be nsd and we were all in awe. She referred to women like me as “baby Christians.” I knew I was lacking but was unclear where my growth needed to be focused.
We read all the books (Rick Warren, Joel Osteen, whoever wrote The Prayer of Jabez, some Beth person) the list goes on and on. Whatever the “Christian” book of the moment was, we bought it and read it. My business did not grow. I was not successful…
I remember going to church and asking my Priest for a moment after the service. I told him that I had been learning that my goals are not big enough, my deserve level isn’t high enough, and I asked him if I had been saved. I was in tears and he held my hands in his and suggested that maybe I try a different Bible study group. He also assured me that we had the “saved” thing covered when I was baptized as an infant.
My senior director was fond of saying that when she died, she was going to have to face Mary Kay and God, in that order. She was a lapsed Catholic and I always thought that was kind of hinky, but then again, when we got the call from MK Corporate that MK had died, I cried, so there you go. The point is that Mary Kay became entangled with God in my head and it was devastating.
I am not a stupid woman. I have advanced degrees. (That would be plural.) I can’t believe I fell for this shit. It got to the point in my head that if I quit MK, I was also quitting God. Can you take a moment and breathe and think about how powerful this thinking was for me? I was letting “the enemy” steal my dreams; I was letting negativity into my life. The response from my sister directors when I mentioned reading MK Sucks (PT way back then) was devastating. I was quickly id’d as the person to avoid and to pray for because I was letting satan into my head. I was doubting. I was not working enough, I was not believing enough.
I quit, after telling my unit to read PT, make their own decisions, and decide what was best for them. I circumvented the MK return form by using the one on PT and surprised my senior with a huge hit in June the year I quit. Rumor has it she was really pissed. We have that in common.
So some 5 plus years out, I am still amazed at the women who fall for this crap. That’s what it is, it’s crap. The money is in recruiting and that is the entire focus. The product line is changed to make sure consultants order and the directors get their cut. I am appalled at the nsd’s who quote Scripture out of context as a way to justify their behavior. This twisting of “religion” and “God” and “spirituality” is morally corrupt and emotionally damaging.
To put the period on my sentences here… the woman who led my super special Bible study sessions did in fact become nsd. She did her 5 years and quit. I wonder how she sleeps at night. How do any of the “leaders” in MK sleep at night?
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